December 2011
Just can’t bare it anymore….
I am, the worst fiance ever….
Fuck this horrible place!!
I may hate my job, but every once in a while a customer van come around and make me really love it…..thank you Brian, you restored a little faith today :-)
I wish there was a way to show him he’s not ruining my life, but that he’s the reason I live it….
Really worried about him…
You only know what I want you to I know everything you don’t want me to Oh your mouth is poison, your mouth is wine Oh you think your dreams are the same as mine Oh I don’t love you but I always will Oh I don’t love you but I always will Oh I don’t love you but I always will I always will I wish you’d hold me when I turn my back The less I give the more I get back Oh...
I have nothing left to give…nothing more I can show to prove it….
My effin back hurts…..and I’m a smidgen cranky…..just want to see my love today, but that’s not gonna happen…boo…..
Bite your tongue girl….
Sexual frustration doesn’t even begin yo explain it. This whole being tight thing isn’t so great when, first, no one is there to appreciate it, and second, I’m too tight yo even do it myself……so pissy …..ugh….now time to smile…..
sleeping next to him, made me so incredibly happy, it just sucks that we both have work tomorrow, especially me at 4:30 :-/ But I couldn’t have asked for anything more this weekend….well except for me shutting my mouth earlier tonight…I need to just learn to keep my damn mouth shut………but I love him more than anything in the world…and don’t know what...
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So what started out as a rough weekend turned into a pretty incredible one. Got to spend a lot of time with my family, and actually got to sleep next to my love. And he liked his ring, which makes me incredibly happy!! Now back to the disappointments, stupid uncle ruining my freaking plans…
In with the good air…
Needing cuddles and kisses….
At a loss for words….shouldn’t have even posted anything last night and shouldn’t have said anything today…i ruined his birthday and I guess now I’m already ruining Christmas…..happy fucking holidays…
Completely wasted my breath last night…feels like I waste it every day…….
Counting down the hours until I get to see him...
5 hours and 42 min…..dammit….
Feeling pissy….must be the lack of sleep…..or something…going to buy myself flowers tomorrow…that always makese feel better..
I hate that the longer I.work.here the.more.I.hate it and the.more.I.hate myself….I feel like shit and I can’t even hope to try and feel better fir at least 2days…..I just hate what’s going on….and there isn’t a damn thing I can do to fix it…..something has got to give…..I can only smile and pretend to be happy for so long….when is enough...
This is gonna hurt, this is gonna hurt like hell…this is gonna damn near kill me…
I wish he knew
That it doesn’t matter to me when we get married. It could be tomorrow it could be in a year, I just want to share my life with him and I want to legitimately call him my husband.
That no matter what complications I will always love him more than I have ever loved anyone.
That I don’t care that he has trouble sleeping and might wake me up, I just want to be able to sleep next to the...
Shouldn’t have checked this…
your blue eyes pierced my soul as you thrust deeper in,
your hands firmly hold my throat, asserting your dominance
your skin on my skin feels like the finest silk
your kiss is filled with passion and lust
too bad it was only a dream….
So as much as I’m about equal rights for women etc etc, nothing makes me happier then being able to give him a massage and to get him to relax a little bit. Pleasing him pleases me..
For Christmas, I just want him to be happy, nothing else, I just wish that he could be happy and know how amazing he is…..You think Santa could handle that?
Can’t even have your attention when we’re in the same room….
I just want to go away for a little while, and since a day is all I have I guess that’s as long as I’ll go….I don’t see how hard that is to understand…..I hate my shitty job, I hate that my friends have become distant and seemed to have replaced me without even batting an eye, and I hate that my parents are so far away…..so just let me have this...
Glad I got to spend some time with him. Def looking forward to this Saturday for some us time in the snow….I cherish any and all alone time I get with him…..thank God for him..he helps me make it through.
"Actions speak louder than words.."
Need something…..
Shoot me…
Just want him…..hate not feeling good..
Wants to be at home in a ball watching Moulin Rouge…….hate bad colitis days
I know
that God has a plan and that everything is done for a reason, but I really wish he would pick someone else to teach his diving lesson to….I’m not questioning him….I’m just saying…please let my love have some peace for a while…..please..
Yay!
It’s shipped!! Can’t wait for it to get here…
